end of summer

I get to go back to work Monday after being off since May. Im kinda excited  but dreading it still. I have get used to a rountine again. I can do anything psycial but im sure I will stay busy I bet if I would have had a shot in my knee I could have went back to work sooner. but here I am still injuried, and out my 300 hours on vacation time. My leg still hurts but I dont have that persisant griding,I dont  think I could have lived with taht much longer Time will tell when i go back to work monday. I still go to PT twice a week. I am so blessed  that I hope this is just temperory, it was making me severly depressed

Ok having said that. I did make alot of car trips this summer. This summer I did more then I think I ever did.

I couldnt do much walking but saw alot. I do have pictures but I have to sort them out. I think my memory card is fried. I want  to add entrys in my journal.

I got rid of  alot of stuff this month but I still have a more to get rid of so when I move I wont have much to do. I have really made alot of progress but stll have a ways to go.I have maybe 1 large box of household things,1 large box of arts and craft things  1large box of books,1large box personal items lke clothes, etc, small tv, small couch,small couch bed,end table,small metal desk, wooden chest.large bookcase,so not to much. I still need to finish my closet, and shed upmaybe hit up the other closets in the house,even though they arnt mine.

How to combat boredom

I fell alittle it better today. I did have a major meltdown this morning. I baked some yummy  blueberry and walnut bread. It turned out very good and I even cleaned up after myself. I took a loaf over to the kids, number 3 loved it but no one else did. Thats ok  cause more for me lol. It is nice for something to taste good. I have had a stomach bug for about a week.ewwww Being on crutches in Walmart with the runs is not a good thing.

I am very very discouragged about my art. I got a 77 on my assignment,mmmm so -so I guess. I think Im going to try to play with some fabric now.I got rid of my old sewing machine. Might get me one of those cheapy walmart ones. I got a bag of scraps from the thrift shop today really cute stuff. I dont want to get into collecting fabric , nope, no way.


 I might start doing my nails, fake ones,etc. I did get some new ideas, to spend my time.. I still am having trouble with my knew. I tried the wii but I have little to no balance,and my knee locks up. Im down to one crutch now. Im really worried I will fall . Im trying to use both legs but its still kinda painful. Later  tonight
Shaun comes home. It stinks just being here with my brother. Now my son does not have a car, his dad hit a deer.

Ok ok enough of the negative stuff. I am going to try the law of attraction  stuff. I wrote a poem on my wall.I need to get rid of the feeling of being invisible. its pretty good I think. My poems are like my art, to just si down and do it is not  very good  but when it comes spontaneous and from my heart its damn good.

Halles hobbies

http://halleshobbies.blogspot.com/2010/06/day-dreaming-and-giveaway.html

check this  blog  out, I like  her  stuff

Im turning this blog into a journal of my time at home due to a injury at work. I find this alot of help getting through this hard time.

OK there will be alot art stuff here but also random babbling about my thoughts and feelings. Beware sometimes it will be sad, boring or happy.

My day consist of doing alot of journaling, drawing and painting,tv, movies and knitting.

I watched alot of Americain Pickers, wow they have a great job going city buying junk for resale. They really find some cool stuff to resale. I also watched alot of Pawn shop, people always think they will get alot for money from selling stuff, wronggggg.

I did two pastel pictures yesterday, one of a Suzi Blu girl and a dragon for my counselor,, yes I have depression. Today I hope I find out about if and when I get my temp disability check, Im scared right now I have only a few days coming on my next paycheck,3 infact an thats already promised. I have worked 21 years at the same job and here I am in really bad shape. Im going to loose my phone soon if I dont get some money. Ok enough about the money.

I was so burned out at work a few weeks ago , I needed some time off but not like this. My knee hurts Im just getting where I can walk with crutches in my house, in pain. dont get out of the house much. I go to PT 3 times a week. I get a MRI Thursday, and Friday I go back to the specialist, Im so lonely people from work I guess forgot me or I guess didn't care to begin with,