sunday

I had a rough night at work. Im getting kinda worried we have a meeting this week about budget cuts, I dont think I will lose my job but im sure I will lose my over time shift. I cant make it with out that shift.

Im so worried about my older son and his drinking. It rips me to shreds. It pulls the rug out from me. I can handle most things but it kills me when he calls me drunk or I find out he is drunk.


Ok one more negative thing. It likes day 3 now no word from the snake. Its getting better. I have to admit . I just need to round the bin and I will be ok. I knew knew he would throw me under the bus. Im so dumb . I guess it is my independence day. He promised me he would tell me if he wanted to end it but he chickend out. I miss the daily contact . I lived with fear and dread that he would end it so Im glad it over now. This is the day I waited for for about a year.
The powers that be must have felt sorry for me and caused this freak happen stance .

Ok onwarded. I got more stones for the gardens. I need to unload but im tired and its getting ready to storm. I think I will sleep most of the day till my younger son comes home. I might drag out some kind of craft project to do. I used to love to do stuff now that I have room Im not interested. I really jacked up my coffe table lol I spilled water and it made a red school folder lose its dye,,opps then I spray painted the whole thign white,duhhhhhhhh. Now I have to sand it all down. Start over.

I did enjoy the river I took pictures and nature. I think I pissed off the goat man I didnt mean to get him in my pics. Its nice to go there sunday morning to get the rock. Im going to start adding pics to my blog.