art journal and real life tid bits

I am so very happy to be working on this project for swap bot.  I do alot of art journals for myself but do not share them, so I thought this would be fun to share my journal.  I am doing a little each day so by the time its sign up day I will be pretty much done with the bare bones of it,



My real life........

Its hot,humid. Im pretty tired  the heat drains the energy out of me at my 2nd job.  Im kinda discouraged working two jobs and something always come  up to eat the extra  money I make. Im pretty lonely despit all my working.  My son should hear back on his eye surgery, God willing he will get funding soon. My younger is going to have a show soon. I will post pictures,

Did you ever want to give up art?

I love doing art. It keeps me sane most the time but it bothers  me  when people judge my art or lack of art skill. Im a mediorce  artist at best. Sometime I amaze my self and can not believe I painted or drew it. Then the other 90% of  the time I thinking my dog  could  do a better job. I was  sitting here today going through my art supply. I dont have alot of stuff just basic paints,water color arclyic, pastels,lots of drawing pencils,some  scrapbookie  stuff.  I want to order more  but  money is tight. I feel like Im wasting my time and money doing art. Ok  I feel  that today. I guess my stomach is getting ready to blow with an ulcer and im not feelign  well.


I really work hard on a swap bot project and get a so so response.That set me  back a long ways. I had total  artist blockage today  but I took a break and ate something and I did really well I think finishing.

I made a crochted rug this weekend out of old sheets. My son said it looks like a flower. Its really messed up  but i love it. Im learning as I go. Im thinking  I would  rather do bigger and more practicle things with my art.

On to the next thing. Wow I joined paltalk ,I learned  about it from a friend. I get really lonely I need to look at better  rooms there. Lots of pervs.

I started  my garden  but I thnk it was to soon  plus I have tons of stuff in my house,. its  to cold.Im trying to keep it all alive till   i can take it outside.

sunday

Wow what a original name,Sunday. I  go to work today at 4pm,,for  a 12 hours shift at the group home. I think I work enough away from home by Thursday at 8am im ready for those  almost four days off,by Sunday 4 Im ready to go back to work.  I have one more over time shift coming this week. Which Im at a quandry, I need the work,its not overly hard but its does have the tendency to burn me out. Im trying to to bring stuff for me to do because its long and boring after I get my work done. I should  do my home work but nawwww. Thats another issues. Im thinking  I do need to put myslef on a schedule. I went out of town, I did crafting, did cleaning, did art,had  dinner for the kids,slept had a pretty good weekend. I miss Michael,alot. I get used to talking to him then I hate missing a few days.

I have decided Im grounding my self from ebay after my bids come in. Im going to pay/if I win then stop for awhile. There was a picture of my Goth angel. I like doing just graphite,but I do have some color on the wings,face. Im not  sure I like her one ear tuck away

friday friday

Its been a really good  day today. To be honest I have not  had  the best of days.  The weather is lovely,I have heat, and water. I know i posted  that before  buts its been about 3 weeks of household issues and a slow landlord. Im comfortable now . I have a few days off work and I slept about 12 hours ,ate and drank alot of fluids. By the time Thursday 8am rolls by I have abused my body by not sleeping,eating ro drinking enough fluids. Anyway I cleaned house. I slapped my dollhouse together ,that makes me feel better . Thats a horrble addicting hobby,dollhouses.lol.  I have a big long folding table I put this one together one , it worked  great  but I dont like it ,it take alot of space of in the living room and that I dont like Im kind of  anal about the living room and kitchen .

I have been reading blogs and such wow. This one isnt pretty,not thought out  well, grammer and spelling sucks  but hey its my blog.

Got a phone call and was worried I would  have to come in to work,,enough said  thank gosh I dont.

Going get back on the positve path and enjoy the rest of this lovely day

good ending to a crappy day

yeah i finally got  water in my house. Long story but it was so nice to be able to get dishes done,shower... still have a pretty good leak dripping but a bucket will fix it. For goodness sakes ,a little drip shouldn't kill me . Any way I heard a interview with Suzi Blu,,yeahhhh  I love her. Her life has been less then perfect but I love her advice. It really has helped me to feel good about myself. I'm a loner ,and its ok. I live in less then desirable places but I always fix them up and then move on,that's ok .Between her and Pink,they have helped me more then I think years of counseling. Its ok to be me. Wow I should be sleeping I worked 16 hours ,got one hour of sleep then off to work I go In about 2 hours. The next few days are going to be hard at work, extra hours, different shifts and inspections..sigh  when do i get my raise??????something is not right with that but any way ...relax ,breathe and move on.

art and anxiety

I always said  art saved my life well not so much anymore. I do come home on a Tuesday am at * am from a midnight shift this being my 3 rd shift of the week  very stressed and sketch out something, it does relieve my stress. Wow I wish something would get rid of this anxiety I have.

Its very cold here in wyoming. I cant wait for spring. I think thats is alot of my problems the  winter weather. I guess there is nothing I can do about but dress warm and dream of nicer weather


The Law of Attraction Im studying it and trying to put it in affect for my life.