woo hoo its cooled down

Wow todays its cooler then it has been all week. Im too poor or tired to do much work now lol. It feels so nice.

The money pit is hungry. I called the exterminator,, I cant handle ants, spiders,bugs, The floors have been f*d up from so many leaks. and the buggies l;ike that. Its better now to have them take care of it instead of me finding surprises as I tear things up.

I am very over whelmed about this remodeling bit. I keep telling myslef it will all be good. I hope to have the big stuff done by november. I have leaky stuff in the bathroom. I need to take care of the leaks,then the floors,then the pretty stuff comes last. I rember I hate being a home owner. I need a aniexty prn lol. I hate being broke.Im not usually this bad off.

I keep telling myself this is good ,this is good. It will be good.

I did do some drawing and painting last night. I need to get out of the house. Im starting to go batty. I like my painting but the ladies hand is to dark. My colors kinda got muddy and murky but I think I can fix that.

On the other hand I am feeling better.

rock gardens

I hit the jack pot. My ex lives down by a river and he let a cement company dump their old stuff. I have been down there 3 times to get trunk load of red broken concrete slabs. I also got a load of some kind of river rocks. Im waiting for my son to someday take his pick up truck down and I can fill it. I love it. Its a welcome project here. I can only lift so much but its a nice drive by the river and its peaceful but its in a bad part of town have to becareful. A trunkload gives me enough to do a small project each time. I have to watch out for snakes,skeeters. I will take pictures as I go . Im keeping a journal as to what all I do here. It was a mess when I moved in.

Its sad living here with my parents both passing and my brother lives here. My son moved last night ,so its not so lonely. I have a lot to work on,redoing floors they are falling threw. The carpet stinks. painting,more leaks in the bathroom. We still have to get the trailor signed over into our name. I miss living with the grandkids. I have been kinda sick lately a reoccuring sore throat. Losing weight but its hot and I have been more active.

moved again

My dad passed away 3 weeks ago. I moved in to the trailor with my bro. MY son is coming also but he hates the idea. Its old and my brother is weird.

I was happy at first the remodeling but it cost so much money and it s so yucky here. I dont know how my parents lived here,its was a filth hole.

Im lonley with out the grandkids. So lonely and shaun not moving over . I have to make him I guess. Im tired and dont feel good kinda depressed.

visitng the mad hatter tea partys ..woo hoo